Do you feel better now, she falls to the ground.

Yesterday was full of drama rama. If you are her, please do not read this post for you will be extremely hurt. I'm not that angry at you, I just need somewhere to rant so I can organise my thoughts and chill. Trash out with you some other day, I repeat, I'm not pissed at you. I am simply angry at myself.


What were you aiming for when you did that? I have nothing to say, thank god you hardly ever go out with us when we'll huddle in groups at mos burger, spilling and confessing everything out. Else probably by now, everybody would have known our secrets, boyfriends, wrongdoings and what not already.

Or worse. Yeah, probably alot worse since the stories are twisted and puts you in a good light somehow. We dont have big mouths, we confide stuff in each other and that's that. The essence of trust, which is why you still probably dont know some/most of the stuff we've been keeping. It's extremely unfair when you do stuff like that, when we have to sort out and clear the mess you ve left behind. You could have told us you were uncomfortable, you could have told us to stop speculating while we were at it. We would have stopped. In fact, I did. Why would I want to get her into trouble? She's your friend, she's mine too. It was unintentional and probably names were thrown out of curiosity.

Is that so bad that I deserve a whole new gang of haters?

That being said, thanks for letting me know it was really her. I was only speculating when I said that btw :x You made things a whole lot worse by exaggerating, I shouldve known, but they dont, I know you so much better. I'm sure I went around spreading, I'm sure I told the whole school and not only EL. But I didnt.

What if I turned the tables around? If I had told people what you what you had said/ gossiped about them, how would you feel? What if I went straight to the victim herself and told her? I can not only tell on you with them, I can write a list of stuff on my blog, in caps + bold and for the whole world to see, especially the victims themslves. I do remember stuff like these much better than you do and I do know more than you can imagine since you ve practically told us everything.

But I wont. I never had. Had anybody started snubbing you since you told me those stuff about them, no, for sure, because they dont know. What you did was purely mean, unfair and uncalled for. Do you ever think? From gossip, it has gone on to a whole new level called bitching and backstabbing. That being said, I was probably more in the wrong than you, depending on what perspective you're looking from. I'm sorry for those who're hating me now, I'll try to clarify as much as I know and talk to you guys next week or something. Okay fine, I know some have forgiven and forgottened but I still need to clarify since it's not what it seems. It's not her fault, it's mine. I'm just pissed at myself for being so direct, saying stuff I shouldnt have, and not knowing who to trust.


And to esther and cynthia, thanks like a million times else I wouldnt have known. And thanks for being there when you guys knew I was about to cry/ offering to help. xoxo. People get backstabbed on and get turned against all the time, but it's good to know youve got friends you can count on.

As for you, nope I dont hate you :) Ive been through this a million times, and this is probably one of the most minor ones (you can absolutely compare to the person who has hated me for 4 years). Wait or how bout you can that girl get together and you can start a hate club. Pah.


It's bad enough that I am struggling to keep up with all the tests, speeches and shit. I need less drama. And if you think I'm a bitch after reading this, by all means you can join my hate club too. XOXO

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